Monday, November 3, 2008

Message in a hypothetical bottle

So, here's the thing. A common dilemma seems to be plaguing a majority of the people of my generation. I call it the "Insignificance trauma". After much research and study, I list my observations.
It feels like being in the middle of some twisted camera trick Alfred Hitchcock might have used in Vertigo. The world seems to sprout like a mushroom and rise up all around you. The world gets bigger and you get smaller. The cockiness that comes out of having complete faith in your own abilities is gone. You're not so sure that there is a place for you in the big wide world after all.
To put it more bluntly, you've lost your mojo (not just sexually, you perverts).
Suddenly, you seem to be disintegrating into a shadow of your former self. You can't write as well as you used to. You can't sing or dance or play basketball as well as you could once. You seem to have lost that irresistible charm that you once had over the opposite sex. Your symptoms can be any, all and more of these. But whatever different things you're going through, at the end of the day, it's the same damn feeling.
You're getting smaller and the world is getting bigger.
When this condition worsens, the feeling becomes more severe. You feel like you're disappearing, a little bit everyday. And of course, nobody seems to be noticing except you. Sometimes, you nearly yell out to the un-noticing void.
Can't you not see me vanishing in front of your very eyes, you blind idiots? @#&$*%
Nothing changes on the outside, you continue going to college or work or wherever. All the turbulence brewing underneath does not even stir the surface. Parents don't see it. Teachers don't see it. Sometimes, friends don't either. You just walk around all day with this sensation of emptiness, that's all.
I don't know why we're all going through this but it can't be the first time that a whole bunch of young people have doubted their lives, right? Other folks must have been through this before us and they clearly survived, didn't they?
What can I say? If this is happening to you, then please know that it's happening to all of us.
This too shall pass.

3 comments:

MaliZOMG said...

#1:
I'M still cocky. There's still hope.

#2:
I still have my mojo. Although to be honest, it's been awhile since I knew sexually.

#3:
People suck.

#4:
You ended the post on a, 'This too shall pass.'
Bad move.
You see, I tend to fuss over famous movie lines. So every once in a while I tend to yell, 'Are you not entertained? ARE YOU NOT ENTERTAINED??!' (Gladiator, Russel Crowe).


Now the only thing that's passing through my mind is,

"YOU SHALL NOT PASS!"

(The Lord Of The Rings: The Fellowship Of The Ring, Sir Ian McKellan)


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The High Priestess said...

@ M: In reply to #4: Oh I'm sorry, did I forget to tell you? My blogs are not personally directed to you :P And everyone does not have the same obsession with using famous movie lines when they can't come up with their own. Hence, I don't see the badness of my move :D
Aww you know I still <3 you..muah!

@ cuckud: I love you too. Why are you disturbed?

MaliZOMG said...

Oh please, I CAN'T come up with good lines? Pssshh...


:P

M